A tired pause and thoughts about what’s next

Today ended up being a rest day.

After a full, demanding workday, I felt genuinely tired, the kind of tired that isn’t fixed by pushing a bit more. So I didn’t. I slowed down instead.

Even though I still like my profession as a developer, I’m realizing more clearly that I’m a much better fit for a lean startup mindset. I enjoy building, experimenting, and delivering value directly. When companies move into scale-up mode, with more hierarchy, more planning, more meetings, and more layers, the joy starts to fade for me. It becomes less about creating and more about coordinating.

That shift is probably why things haven’t felt as exciting lately.

I also continued reading Tiny Experiments today, and the chapter I landed on was about building in public. It brought back a lot of memories. The best version of that era, for me, was somewhere around 2013–2016 — when sharing progress felt natural and human, not something engineered for algorithms.

Today, “building in public” often means being on X, YouTube, or constantly feeding social platforms I no longer enjoy. I know the reach isn’t the same anymore, and that’s okay. I continue sharing my updates here instead, not for growth hacks or visibility, but to keep myself accountable. This space feels slower, quieter, and more honest.

I really miss the early social web. These days, I mindfully stay away from posting personal updates on social media. This log feels like the right place for them.

Today also made me think quietly about what’s next. About next year. About whether I want to keep operating in environments like this, or whether it might be time for a reset, maybe even a gap year, if things line up the right way.

No decisions yet. Just honest noticing.

For now, today was about rest, reading, listening to my energy, and allowing these thoughts to surface without forcing answers.

Sometimes that’s enough.